Some friends of ours told us tonight that they are expecting. (insert the blow to my gut here). They weren't really trying, of course. I absolutely hate the jealousy I feel, and I don't know how to control it. I have never experienced such raw emotion as I do now. I feel like I have no one to talk to about this since no one really knows we are trying. I am truly excited for this couple and I offered to throw her a shower when the time comes. I am sorry for how blunt my posts have been lately, but I feel that the truth will help someone else that feels the way I do. I have also decided that I need to get schnockered drunk, have sex in the back seat of a car at makeout point in a prom dress, maybe that will do the trick. I doubt the hubby will fall for that date idea. My poor husband, thank you for dealing with my craziness.